Gratefulness

 Gratefulness is a very powerful attribute to have in this life. Being a person who had backed off from that very important attitude is now going to be making gratefulness a priority in my life. 

I am very grateful for the friends that I have in my life. It has taken me awhile to get used to having friends in my life. Just a few in my life is all that have been customary in my life. 

The whole friend thing has really went down hill in my life since the last paragraph. Those ladies in the ladies meeting on Monday night is not really what I thought it was. They were really tearing me down somewhere. My days are numbered there. Probably will be kicked out for sure. Leaving will be a good thing for me for sure.

Writing a Book

 I actually did tell Alisa and Mindy that I wanted to write a book. It has been my lifelong dream to write a book. I have ordered some things from Jennifer to write a book I really need to be studying how to write and write well. I really believe that I can do it. I have to write everyday and I have to ask the Lord what He wants me to write a book about. I have no idea what to write a book about but I am sure that the Lord will help me to do just that. I would have to have promotion. I might even put some things on Facebook.

Speech

 Just like cognitive thinking, this topic is off topic for this blog. Since the kingdom of God is voice activated I really think mastering my speech or working to improve my speech is very important. People usually get borned again by the words that someone speaks. The word says people are borned again by the foolishness of preaching. So after all these years the mission is to have better speech. I want my communication to effectual for the Lord.

I want to be in the word and only what is true to come out of this mouth. Words are so important.

Writing

       Just as I have been reading these blogs especially from 2015 I realize that I was even calling out for the more then. I do not even know if I was going to church at that time. The Rock was not my home then, because I was still working. The Rock has never been my church when I was employed. That just confirms to me that I have always wanted the more in the Lord. I want to see the works of the Lord manifest in the land of the living. Some people won't believe even if they see miracles, but many will so this is what I want and if I can be an instrument so be it Lord for your glory. The Lord is good all the time all the time He is good. He is always right too. Not always easy to walk in but always right.

Deliverance

 I have really enjoyed reading Pigs in a Parlor by Frank Hammond it has been an experience. This book is convincing me that I can be the real me. I have know for years the way that I react to situations is just not me. Not the real me. The real me is patient and kind and I am not always patient and kind.

I need to focus on who I am in Christ and that God really loves me and if I really do my homework and allow the Holy Ghost to work in me I will find the real me. My later years are going to be better than former years. Just a little regretful that I have not put this into practice years ago. I had this book and just did not really understand what I was reading. Back in the day deliverance was not talked about much. They did not believe that Christians could have a demon which I did not really believe that because I knew that I had something going on. 

I am going to be reading and watching videos that just point me to the cross its nothing that I can do or earn for success in the Kingdom of God but just trusting in what the Lord did at Calvalry.

He has given me authority though on this earth.

Cognitive Thinking

This past year I have been learning about Cognitive Thinking. I find it very interesting that we all have some twisted cognitive thinking. There are some stories that we tell our self about our self and others that is just not true. We really believe they are true but they in deed are not true. 

If we can get past this self debilitating story telling out of our way we could be so much more productive in our lives. Our relationships would improve and the relationship that we have with our self would  improve. It is a tough cycle to break because most of us have been doing it for a long time. Its a good idea to keep track of how many times that this story telling starts to manifest in our daily lives. After we identify it then we can just start correcting our self and it will get less and less. It certainly will be a life long challenge for sure.

I find this whole cognitive thinking so interesting and I love that I am aware of what is going and can shut that thing down when it starts surfacing. I really need to refresh my memory on CBT. Tom Bilyeu explains it so well I wish that I had written that video down that he explains it so well. 

God is Good!!

Unfortunately, there is so much sadness in the earth and I am sure that everyone who would choose to read these words in this post would say that they have had some sadness in their lives at some point in time. 

The thing is that everyone who has made Jesus the Lord of their lives can choose to be happy in times of great peril. Many of the bible heroes were under great persecution and yet thy chose to rejoice and told the readers to again I say rejoice !! History records that one of those followers was in human refuse under the prison where he was being held for preaching Christ, and yet he was rejoicing and encouraged others to do the same!! That person was none other than Paul the apostle that wrote two-thirds of the New Testament. 

I am so thankful to the Lord Jesus for drawing me to Him and giving me the grace to except Him, to be Lord over my life. Accepting Christ is the most important decision a person can make in their life. I am humbled that I made that decision almost 40 yrs ago and He has never failed me. Does it mean that I don't go through tough times? No way, but it does mean that He never leaves me or forsakes me in my times of need. Does it mean that He does things the way I am expecting Him too? Of course not, but He does things the best way for He knows the best for me.

We have a lot to do with how things turn out in our lives as well, we have a free will to do how we want. We gain knowledge through the Word of God, the Bible and we pray and apply the Word to our lives and do the things that He tells us to do and then He does the things we cannot do. He even helps us do the things that we can do. 

 We need a relationship with The Lord to lead us and guide us into the truth that we need for our current circumstances that are causing us pain, or the things that are bringing us great joy. He is the God of the mountain top and the valley. He will never leave us of forsake us!!

This is the day that the Lord has made and I will be glad in it. I want the Lord to reveal things to me not just to have knowledge but things that He gives to me it is for my family. I want to know that scripture but not sure where it is but giving my children things that the Lord has given me revelation on. If I do not give my children money but give them truths I am still leaving them and inheritance. I really want to be rich though so that I can help establish God's truth on the earth.